Deep Thoughts #1: Goodbyes

It’s the small things. It’s the small things that you would miss so much.

The sound and presence of people you wake up with in the morning.

The sight of your loved ones for you to behold.

The reassurance you get as you seize the day that you will

come back home seeing the same faces again.

The ‘goodbyes’ you say are the same as yesterday’s.

You know that you will only be separated for at least 8 hours.

It’s a routine that you become accustomed with.

Until something happens.

Change.

Change happens.

Suddenly your ‘goodbyes’ don’t seem to feel like yesterday’s anymore

And you know that with the passing of time,

The next encounter would no longer feel the same.

They have aged.

They have grown wrinkles but still are beautiful and good-looking.

They have forgotten about the time you’ve spent Christmas eve together

below the twinkling stars on your rooftop.

You could feel those memories buried beneath the pits of their stress and problems

that they have managed to live through at least for the days to come...

Just for you. And they try to be happy as you bring back

and relive the good old memories from the past as a family.

Whole again and unbroken.

Not separated by distance in this very moment.

The silence here is deafening.

Left alone with the mind to speak with,

It could literally destroy you

when your thoughts have no discipline;

no ability to control, to stay positive,

and make peaceful amendments from over-thinking

and stay focused WHY you’re here in the first place.

My yesterdays will always be just a dream.

Some I’d wish to reminisce over and over again,

while others I’d rather throw away like a passing nightmare.

Tomorrow is no guarantee.

Today is all I have left to seize.

Let me live my life hungry in search of my purpose

and in finding the thing that makes me feel alive.